I like..

o Black framed specs. 
o Dimpled smiles.
o New movie promos.
o When a teacher skips over you accidentally. 
o When an elder woman touches my head to bless me.
o Talking to strangers who strike interesting conversations.
o Non verbal communications. (spells?)
o Taking photographs.
o Listening to music all day.
o Watching movies in large theaters.
o Fall, fall, fall. 
o Walking on a lonely road surrounded by trees after it rains.
o Slow breeze.
o Reading.
o Random comments on this blog.
o When someone shows genuine respect to the ones worthy of it.
o Children or grown up people who are still stuck in their childhood.
o Honesty.
o Open spaces.
o Talking to close friends in the dark. 
o Expressing.
o Taking school spirit to a whole new level. 
o Someone I shouldn't...

Good Morning!

Let's just try to make today go a little bit smoother than the last, okay?

I need a break.

A break from my life. 

A break from my family. 

A break from psychotic parents. 

A break from school. 

A break from stupid boys. 

A break from tears. 

A break from work. 

A break from fighting. 

A break from this craziness.

I need a break in my life. But I'm never going to get one. 

Stress.

It's overwhelming right now. And every time it seems to lessen, it gets worse. Like about five minutes ago actually, I experienced that exactly. I hate people. Well, most.


Stress. 


It's creeping gradually, unseen, untouched, and hidden.
It's like steam coming out of my ears.
Burning, painful, and sore.
It looks like a two horned devil, getting on my nerves.
It feels like a headache, that seems to go on for eternity.
I am stressed out. The panic is rising to my head.
My heartbeat's racing. And I'm breathing ridiculously fast.
It's a tension headache, and an aching back.
My fingers are curled; there's stiffness in my neck.
Am I failing? How long will these feelings last?
I may be having a nervous breakdown.
It sucks to feel this way, the world is spinning too fast.
I can't catch up.

Geek.

Seriously, I freaking love books. So bloody much.

Sometimes.

Sometimes you bump into people you don't want to know.
Sometimes you bump into people you know.
Sometimes you bump into your ex.
Sometimes you get emotional.
Sometimes you hesitate.
Sometimes.


I think I am getting a clearer sense of enlightenment.
Of people, the human race, society, family, and friends.
I feel that at times I may be a little too self-absorbed, and thus, neglecting the important people all around me. Well, maybe self-absorbed isn't the right word, but I've yet to come up with something better. And at times I feel that the 'me' interacting socially may not actually be myself. It's a weird feeling. Almost like drunk driving; (not that I would know first hand, mind you) when you know where you are going but not sure how fast or how erratic the driving is.

Marry me?

Rainy Days.

It's a rainy day today. I love rainy days. I love how the world seems to be washed clean by the angry droplets from the sky. The smell is intoxicating. It's my favorite type of day. Not many others share my enthusiasm. 

Goodness.

I haven't written in a while. At least, it's been a while for me. Miss "I have nothing else to do so I'm going to sit at my computer everyday and think of witty blog posts." This is because, sadly, my laptop has hit its last breathe. I honestly didn't try to drop it. I hope this doesn't lead you to think that I will become an abusive parent one day, I just tripped, that's all. My dad tried to revive it, but sadly, he's no Jesus. I'm just going to use my dad's, I suppose. At least it lights up with all different pretty colors.